a Love Letter for You

Hello, Dear My Love.

I love you. You must know that. I love you so that I cannot imagine my life without you. I cannot sleep, I lie awake all night turning and turning about and saying your name. I have never felt like this before and understand now how a man could cut off his hand or slit his throat in the torment of such feeling. I love you. I say it over and over in my mind and see you standing there under the tree and the streetlight and suddenly it seems as if I can hardly breathe. Everything of the world that is beautiful to me is bound up in you. You are those trees, that light, the loveliness of everything I am cut off from if you say no. I tell myself that in those moments on Friday night when my ears were ringing and my mouth dry I heard you say “Not yet, Nando”. It may not be true. But I hope with all my heart it is and know that I can wait, however long, for you