Thanks for everything yeah :')

Helloo

Gue udah ga mau basa-basi lagi. yang jelas gue cuma mau nulis sama apa isi hati gue yang sekarang tepat hari ini, gue udah putus sama yang Namanya Nando. entah deh lo manggil siapa. yang penting, gue berterima kasih banget sama lo nan, karena lo udah ngewarnai hari-hari gue. dan kini gue harus terbiasa buat ga hidup tanpa lo disisi gue lagi. gue tahu, lo yang mengambil keputusan buat putus. tapi, gue cuma minta satu dari lo. kalo misalnya lo bakal dapat yang lebih baik dari gue, gue pengen lo itu jangan nyakittin hati dia, jangan bikin dia marah sama lo, jangan ngecewain dia, dan jangan cuekin dia seperti lo nyuekin gue. Gue tahu, gue ga bisa segampang itu ngelepas lo gitu aja, hanya saja gue itu susah banget ngelupain lo. ini emang cobaan yang berat buat gue.

Kemarin, Novi juga senasib dengan gue. dia putus dengan cowoknya seperti gue. gue juga udah berulang-ulang kali ngerasain kok gimana rasanya ditinggalin sama orang yang kita sayang, orang yang selalu ada disaat kita membutuhkannya, dan orang yang membuat kita tersenyum. Kini, gue udah harus bernafas tanpa lo. gue sama lo bakal jadi sahabattan dan ga akan lebih. tapi kenapa, gue ga bisa ngerelain lo itu pergi dengan cewek lain. gue emang masih sayang sama lo. Gue berusaha buat ga nangisin kepergian lo, tapi kenapa gue tetep ga rela. apa gue ini terlalu sayang ya sama lo? sampai gue kayak gini, susah buat ngelupain lo

Dear Fernando

I have a message for you, dear

Thanks For everything, you've made me happy, you've coloured my days, you've made me smile when i'm sad, and finally, you've made me cry over. I just want you to know, about my fault. i realize, i've made you angry with me. and so many words of "I'm sorry, please forgive me!". and now,  i'm so sorry about it.

Honestly, from my heart. i want to write about what i feel to you now. first, i can't let you go because i still love you. second, i can't forget you. because our memories too sweet to forget. third, i can't be perfect for you. because nobody's perfect in the world. and the last, i'm sorry i'm not the best for you, and maybe i must go from your life

3 months isn't enough! i need more! but, you can't give me a second of chance. I just can't stop loving you. because i'm very loving you. so, please could you tell how to forget you? please help me! you've said you're not loving me anymore. perhaps, do you have another girl than me? but, you said "i don't have another girl. i just want to be a single" it makes me hurt you see? so, i hope you'll get better than me. maybe, may i tell you about 3 words the last time for you? i love you. don't never forget our memories yaaa :')

Your love, Raisa

How a bad life

Hellooo

long time no post here. i'll post about something. sorry gue baru bisa post di blog gue. gue kemarin-kemarin lagi ga ada ide haha. dan baru sempat post disini. kali ini gue mau ceritain sebuah peristiwa sial di hidup gue. okay let's cekidots

Gue seminggu full dipake les bahasa inggris, dan jalan naik motor kesana kemari cuma buat senang-senang. dari senin sampai minggu sekarang gue jalan terus. HAHA kayak ga tahu aja anak muda jaman sekarang, bokap nyokap gue dan nenek gue ikut serta mengomeli gue. wtf

Kemarin hari rabu, si pacar kecelakaan. gue khawatir berat sama si nando tapi gue lega karena bisa nengokkin dia hihi. ceritanya berawal dar gue mau ke monumen tuh, gue ke monumen sama temen-temen. terus waktu pulang gue dianter sama dia sampai rumah, nah gue udah bilang hati-hati sama dia. jangan ngebut-ngebut. dia kan mau balik ke monumen lagi karena disana masih ada temen-temen gue. gue duluan pulang karena udah maghrib, dan kenapa dia kaget gitu terus nge rem mendadak pas di polisi tidur dan akhirnya jatuh. kaki pacar gue jadi luka-luka, udah darahnya banyak banget lagi. gue juga sial, kenapa coba? uang gue hilang! what the fuck, gue juga habis jatuh sama temen gue dari motor. shit

Tapi, akhirnya kakinya si pacar udah mau sembuh, lukanya juga udah kering. dan dia bisa jalan kayak dulu lagi. hihi senang. udah gue cuma dikit aja kok postnya haha. bye

a Love Letter for You

Hello, Dear My Love.

I love you. You must know that. I love you so that I cannot imagine my life without you. I cannot sleep, I lie awake all night turning and turning about and saying your name. I have never felt like this before and understand now how a man could cut off his hand or slit his throat in the torment of such feeling. I love you. I say it over and over in my mind and see you standing there under the tree and the streetlight and suddenly it seems as if I can hardly breathe. Everything of the world that is beautiful to me is bound up in you. You are those trees, that light, the loveliness of everything I am cut off from if you say no. I tell myself that in those moments on Friday night when my ears were ringing and my mouth dry I heard you say “Not yet, Nando”. It may not be true. But I hope with all my heart it is and know that I can wait, however long, for you

Happy Anniversary 1 Month with Fernando :)

Helloo

I just Wanna Say

Happy Anniversary 1 Month with My Boy,Fernando. i love you so much. i can't stop loving you, muah!

I love fernando
he's my boyfriend
he always make me laugh
he has given everything for me
he always in my mind
he always in my heart
he always care for me
he always smile for me

well, ga terasa gue udah sama fernando sebulan, gue senang bgt akhirnya hubungan gue dan dia awet sampai 1 bulan. gue berharap semoga gue bisa awet bgt sama dia, gue sayang sama dia. 29 september ini gue dan dia udah 1 bulan, mudah-mudahan gue sama dia awet ya haha. longlast buat kita berdua nando!

makasih ya buat fernando yang setia sama gue, yang selalu hibur gue, yang selalu temenin gue, yang selalu ngewarnain hari-hari gue. yang udah ngejaga gue atau ngelindungin gue dari mara bahaya haha. and i hope our relationship longlast until our die! amin

God, i wish i could be the best for him. i want to be with him forever, i just wanna be with him. i love you fernando

Please, trust me!

Hello

trust me, i love you more than anything. you have to trust to me. you've dreamed i walk with other boys. and he's your bestfriend, safran. just know it, me and safran just friend. dulu gue emang pernah suka sama safran, tapi karena gue tahu kalo safran pacaran sama fatimah gue jadi ngelupain safran. dan kali ini gue sayang sama lo. hanya saja lo ragu sama perasan gue. gue emang salah, ga peduliin lo, ga perhatiin lo, ga ngertiin lo. gue sadar itu. dan gue pengen berubah

gue sayang lo nan, lo sampai nulis surat buat gue. gue tahu lo cemburu karena sayang, tapi gue lebih cemburu lagi ngelihat lo deket sama cewek lain. agak sakit kelihatannya ngelihat lo sama cewek lain, gue berusaha buat positive thinking sama lo tapi susah tahu ga. gue dan lo harus saling percaya. gue harus percaya lo itu cuma sayang sama gue, dan lo harus percaya kalo gue ga sayang sama safran lagi. gue cuma sayang sama lo nan

lo bilang, bisa aja mimpi lo itu kenyataan. emang sih fatimah sama safran udah putus. tapi bukan berarti gue dekettin dia lagi, gue inget gue punya lo jadi gue ga suka lagi sama safran. plis satu aja jangan ragu sama cinta gue, gue aja yang ragu sama cinta lo. fatimah bilang kalo lo sama safran lagi deket sama fitri. nah lo bilang, "aku sama dia temen, cuma sama-sama hafalan" gue percaya kok. tapi plis jaga perasan gue, gue juga punya perasaan sakit. gue bukan dewa, tuhan. gue manusia biasa yang ga kuat akan perasan sakit

Dear, i'll always love you. because you're part of my life, and you half of my heart. please don't leave me. if you leave me, i must forget you. but i can't do it! because i still love you. if you love someone else, you can tell me. but you see? i never let you go with someone else. i want to keep you in my heart. if you don't love me, i still love you and never let you go from my life. i love you Fernando :)

ENGLISH DAY

Hellooo

looong time no post huahaha, finally i can post here again. yesterday, i attended a English Day in my courses with My Friends and of course with My Boyfriend. i'm very happy to attended English Day haha. i'm level 2 in my courses, will be up in level 3. let's cekidot my photos with my friends in English Day

me with imah rohimah my friend :)


safran and sugi :)


me with my boyfriend :)

so many my photo in english day in my facebook, you can look my pictures there haha. haha you see? my boyfriend have a new hair. i don't know why my boyfriend looking so good when he's cut his hair. i love your new hair baby, but i miss your old hair huhu :(

i can't be patient to wait level 3, because maybe i have a new friend there and i have a new experience there. yesterday i want keep in level 2 but i think if i keep in level 2 i can't meet my boyfriend. it's bad for us -_-

*ps: i have 1 problem again -_-

Love is Never Without Jealousy

Hello

I'M JEALOUS

N: Hello dear!
R: yeah, what's up?
N: i think you're angry, right?
R: yes, how can you know it?
N: in your face, your face is look angry
R: haha, are you sure?
N: sure, please i'm sorry yeah if i've made you angry
R: ok, i'm jealous when she's tag her photo for you
N: who?
R: your facebook friend. she's restu
N: haha i don't know she's tag for me. maybe, she likes me
R: aaaa i'm jealous, do you love her?
N: waw you're jealous, great!. no, i love you. i never love her
R: really?
N: yes, i love you
R: i love you moreee :D

aaa i'm jealous, and yesterday i'm angry when nando's facebook friends tag her photos for nando. i think she likes my bf. ok, i'm jealous because i love my bf. love is never without jealousy, isn't right my friend? i love my bf and i think she loves my bf too. oh it's bad. i never let him to go with her. awkay, i'll use my favorite language, you can call this indonesia language. indonesia language is from my country haha

wajar kan gue cemburu kalo cowok gue digodain sama orang lain? gue marah banget kemarin idih cewek itu masa genit banget sama cowok gue, dikira gue ga marah apa? ok terus begini cowok gue itu comment ke albumnya cewek itu terus kenapa coba si cewek itu GR kalo cowok gue suka sama dia. ha? ga salah? gue cemburu terus comment kalo cewek itu genit, dan dia bilangnya cuma becanda. gue ga yakin kalo cewek itu becanda, gue yakin pasti itu serius.

Maaf ya boy, kalo gue cemburu berlebihan. eh nyatanya cowok gue suka kalo gue cemburuan, aaah cowok gue masa seneng sih kalo gue cemburu? atau emang cowok gue seneng kalo ngelihat gue marah? bikin tambah marah aja dia kan ya

a loving relationship is one in which the loved one is free to be himself to laugh with me, but never at me, to cry with me, but never because of me to love life, to love himself, to love being loved. such a relationship is based upon freedom and can never grow in a jealous heart :)

I want you back

Hello, Morning!

N: why are you? are you ok?
R: hmmm i'm oke
N: please, tell me. why are you?
R: i'm ok, i'm fine
N: i think you're angry for me
R: really?
N: yes, do you love me?
R: yes, of course. why?
N: no problem, i just wanted to ask
R: oh ok

i know, i have problem with you. but you know, it's hurt when i know you love someone else. your ex still love you. and you're different now. i miss the old you, please come back. i want you back, or you'll lose me. i wanted let you go but i still love you. what happen with you dear?

2 weeks is enough to us. maybe, i have to leave you or you have leave me. up to you, and whatever you do. i don't care! you see? i'm jealous boy! and i want you back. thanks, because of you my life is so beautiful. because of you, i can smile again in my day. so many words thank you for you, thank you thank you so much

I'm Sorry. If I've Made You Hurt!

Hello

gue pengen menggalau doloee, pasti tahu siapa deh haha. awkay gue mulai,

cowok itu yang mengerti gue
cowok itu yang melindungi gue
cowok itu yang menghibur gue
cowok itu yang menjaga gue
cowok itu yang menarik dimata gue
cowok itu yang menjaga perasaan gue
cowok itu yang merasa gue sempurna dimatanya
cowok itu yang mencintai gue
cowok itu yang menyayangi gue
cowok itu yang selalu bikin gue tersenyum
cowok itu yang kadang-kadang ngebuat gue nangis karena kangen
cowok itu yang ga pernah nyakittin perasaan gue

gue emang salah ya, gue udah nyakittin perasaan lo. gue udah bikin lo cemburu sampai ngancangin gue, gue emang suka nyemburuin lo. tapi, gue ga suka dibuat cemburu sama lo. apalagi mantan lo itu pada masih sayang sama lo, tapi kenapa lo lebih memilih gue? apa gue sempurna? emang lo mengira kalo gue sempurna. tetapi sebenarnya emang manusia ga ada yang sempurna.

dear, you can hide your feel. but, i know how about what you feel. so, please tell me why are you? you hurt because of me? ok i'm sorry. i've made you hurt! so, please tell me why? you know i adore you, i love you more than you know, i love you more than my self, i love you more than anything

so, if i've made you hurt. please forgive me!. i'm sorry i can't be perfect for you, because nobody's perfect in the world. and i try to be the best for you, i always try it. and please don't leave me alone. if i've made you hurt please tell me awkay. you never make me dissapointed. i always happy if i meet with you somewhere

your smile is make me smile too. your eyes look at me, i'm look at you too. ah i miss our memories when you hold my hand. when you hug me, hold me tight. and i don't want you to leave me alone. how much i miss you, how much i love you, how much i need you. so i wish you know how i feel. aaa please tell me why?

Why is that sad look in your eyes? Why are you crying, tell me now, tell me now. tell me why your feeling this way. i hate to see you so down oh baby. is it your heart. Oh breaking all in pieces. Making you cry, Making you feel blue. is there anything that i can do

Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby . and i'll do my best to make it better . yes, i'll do my best to make those tears all go away . just tell me where it hurts . now, tell me And I love you with a love so tender . Oh and if you let me stay . i'll love all of the hurt away

ok and the last, udah dulu menggalau. gue harap lo bakal ngerti perasaan gue ya, maaf ya kalo gue udah bikin lo sakit gara-gara gue yang selalu bikin lo cemburu. gue sayang kok sama lo, ga mungkin gue ga sayang sama lo. apa lo perlu bukti? ok gue kasih bukti. apa perhatian gue sama lo kurang? apa lo bilang gue cewek yang sibuk? apa lo bilang gue cewek yang dimata lo ini egois? ok gue mau berubah kalo lo menganggap seperti itu

I love Fernando :)

Hello

i swear, i'm happy today. because i'm relationship with Fernando. plese view my relationship status on My Facebook
you know nando? haha itu yang suka fotoan sama gue. nah mau tahu kenapa gue bisa jadian sama nando? jadi gini gue tuh lagi ga tenang habis pingsan, gue pingsan karena waktu renungan gue nangis. karena gue kata temen-temen gue, gue ngamuk jadi gue diangkat sama nando ke Perpus dan gue juga pingsan, waktu gue pingsan nando katanya nangis. terus waktu gue sadar tangan gue dipegang erat sama nando. gue ga tahu kenapa gue merasa nyaman deket sama nando dan nando yang bikin gue tenang kalo nangis. gue harap, semoga gue sama dia bisa longlast. gue sayang sama nando, karena dia gue bisa lupain safran. dia nembak gue caranya dia itu lewat fb nembak gue, tapi sebelumnya gue emang udah kayak pacaran sama dia. i love you nando :)