Dear, my ex-boyfie

Helloo

Hard to believe, hard to forget all about you and hard to let you go from someone else. i ever promised i'll forget him. and now, i know you've got a new girlfriend. It's hard to believe that you're not my boyfriend anymore and me? i'm not your girlfriend anymore.

3 months isn't enough for us, we must coming back and make a new memories. But, i realize. i must accept the reality. you won't love me anymore like before, you won't come back anymore and you've got a new girlfriend who can make you happy than before, i can't make you happy like her. i know, you'll love you with all her heart. because, she's very loving you and hold your love.

Maybe, you'll think about me i'm not the best for you and i always make you angry, dissapointed, down, and etc. ya, i ever over jealous with you. i always negative thinking about you. in fact, i'm jealous because i love you. i wanna lose you and leave me. but, now you've gone from me. you've loved someone else, and you've got a new gf who can make you happy than i can make you happy before.

Over protect, i ever did it with you. i ever made you dissapointed. because, i'm over protect. but you see? i've done it because i wanna lose you. but it's real, now and maybe in the future you won't come back for me

You've made broke my heart, you did it again, you did hurt my heart. and i don't know how many times. so, even thought i still love you

I miss you the old you, when you were text me and called me "sayang, cinta, and raisanya nando". i miss you when you were said my name in front of your class, i miss you when you were wore me your jacket, i miss you when you were hold my hand, hug me and kiss in my cheek. i miss you when you were looked at me, and the last i miss you were you said " sayang, aku kangen. aku pengen peluk kamu, aku takut kamu ninggalin aku" :'(

i'll promise:

from start now, i'll smile with everyone and never cry anymore about you
from start now, i'll move on and find people who can love me and make me happy
from start now, i'll optimistic, i can forget you even it's hard
from start now, i'll believe i can find who can be the best than you
from start now, i'll go and stay away from you
from start now, i'll pray "God, please help me to forget him!"
from start now, God, please making me hates with him even it's hard

I believe, it won't take a long. and i believe....

"someday, someone's gonna love me. the way i want you to need me. someday, someone's gonna take your place. one day, i'll forget about you you'll see even i miss you. someday, someday"

Good Bye my sweet heart, i must let you go, i must forget you. I hope you'll be happy with her ya. i know, you're still thinking about our memories. for the last time, i'll say " i really love you"

Cheerful Saturday part 2

Hello

Mau ngelanjuttin sama hari sabtu kemarin. jadi begini ceritinyi gue kan ada acara bukber dirumah temen gue, dari rumah buih, rumah riska, dan sampai monumen. nah gue ceritain ya satu-satu

At Buih's Home:

We made a Rujak yah, you can call our favorite food "Rujak Buah" you see? my friends were called it's delicious, hot and fresh yesterday. even hot we have liked it (Y). Gue kan lagi ga ada nafsu makan rujak, jadi nando mau suapinin gue. gue ga mau, karena bikin sakit perut sepertinya.

Nah si nando bilang deh sama gue "Sa, makan nah. aku suapin. kalo kamu ga mau makan aku pulang" gue jawab "yak, pulang sudah" dengan wajahnya yang serem, cemberut, dan marah, pergi ninggalin gue. tapi, kan gue kan cuma becanda. Tiba-tiba, riska bilang ke gue kalo nando itu pulang. gue lari tanpa peduli kalo gue pake alas kaki atau sandal apa nggak. so, gue lari buat ngejar nando. gue bener-bener lari sekencang-kencangnya buat ngejar dia. karena, gue ga mau dia pulang dengan wajah yang menyeramkan hihiks. dijalan waktu gue lari-lari ketemu safran dan husin, terus gue berenti tanya "Nando kemana? tuh dia pulang" terus gue bilang lagi "Ish, kalian ini, coba cegah nando buat pulang tuh nah" . kemudian, gue lari lagi buat ngejar dia. ada tanjakkan dan gue ga peduli semangat buat ngejar dia. akhirnya, setelah berlari jauh, gue ketemu sama nando terus gue bilang "Nan, jangan pulang" terus kata nando "ye kamu tadi kamu suruh aku pulang" terus gue jawab "sorry nan, aku kan cuma becanda" yaudah gue pegang erat tangannya biar dia ga pergi dari gue. dan akhirnya, gue kembali lagi kerumah buih

At Riska's House:

Setelah dari rumahnya buih, langsung cabs ke rumahnya Riska. yak kita kesana cuma makan-makan mie doang. dan selebihnya karena gue lagi ngambek gue langsung lemes badan gue dan akhirnya pluk gue pingsan. habis itu ga inget lagi gue. karena emang gue capek habis lari-larian hehe. udah sampai disitu kita mau menuju

At Monument:

Hunting bareng, ketawa bareng, terus ketemu temen lama. foto-foto dan foto-foto terus akhirnya pulang juga, emang cuma sebentar sih berada dimonumen dan akhirnya langsung cabs kerumah masing-masing

Pulang-pulang magrib, kaki sakit dan tidur deh haha

And the last, kapan lagi gue sama temen-temen bisa begitu? gue dan sama temen-temen gue udah kelas 9. mungkin kita bakal pisah, walaupun atau 1 atau 2 orang yang satu sekolah sama gue. tapi, gue seneng punya temen-temen yang peduli dan menyenangkan seperti mereka

I'm yours again and you'll be in my heart

Hello, How are ya my blog? still fine? haha

I'm happy or not, i don't know. i'm confused. i'm galau haha. Gue balikkan sama nando, dan gue sepertinya tambah akrab sama dia. Lo tau ga sih? banyak cewek yang suka sama dia, terus ngasih harapan gitu. dan akhirnya, nando balik juga kan sama gue. gue tahu, nando udah beberapa kali nyakittin gue. tapi gue juga tetep sayang sama dia. Gue udah berusaha buat bernafas tanpa dia, yang kemarin-kemarin gue disamping dia terus, kemana-mana ikut. terus ketawa sama-sama, makan sama-sama dan tidur dipundaknya. dan kini telah kembali, semua telah kembali. terima kasih tuhan, kau telah mengembalikan dia untukku!

Nggak senengnya gini, ada cewek gitu suka sama nando. nah nando emang waktu putus sama gue, si cewek itu dijadikan sebagai pelarian. nando juga sih salah, kenapa harus kayak gitu sama cewek? si cewek itu berharap bakal jadi miliknya, tapi sayangnya dia udah kembali sama gue. dan itu berarti, gue sama nando ga bisa dipisahkan.

1 minggu lebih gue ada disampingnya, ga ada bikin dia ketawa. 1 hari baru putus gue sama dia akrab, kayak ga ada masalah. karena gue sama dia bakal jadi sahabattan, eh kenapa dia marah sama gue, karena gue nasehattin dia. dan bilang kalo gue itu sok nasehattin gitu. dan akhirnya kita musuhan. 1 minggu lebih gue ngajak baikkan, eh kenapa dia ngajak balikkan jadi sama-sama lagi. sumpah gue ga bisa hidup kali tanpa nando, ga tau kenapa. kayak risih gitu ga ada dia. dan kali ini gue memulai kenangan baru bersama nando.

So, i hope we'll longlast untill our die!

All about fernando :)

Hello

he's always on my mind, i love him so much. Oh god, I hope our relationship is longlast until our die :)

Fernando itu tinggi
Fernando itu kurus kayak gue
Fernando itu hidungnya mancung
Fernando itu suka bgt sama korea-korean
Fernando itu suka bgt sama lagu ostnya he's beautiful
Fernando itu suka bgt bikin gue ketawa
Fernando itu suka megang tangan gue
Fernando itu suka bgt bikin gue khawatir
Fernando itu suka tenangin gue kalo gue nangis
Fernando itu pinter bahasa inggris
Fernando itu suka online
Fernando itu suka nyanyi
Fernando itu aktif dalam ber-organisasi
Fernando itu lupa pacaran udah beberapa kali

Fernando itu ga suka dikibulin sama gue
Fernando itu ga suka gue kerjain
Fernando itu ga suka dikecewain
Fernando itu ga suka kalo gue chat sama laki-laki lain
Fernando itu ga suka dicemburuin
Fernando itu ga suka kalo gue sedih
Fernando itu ga suka kalo gue cemberut terus
Fernando itu ga suka gue cuekin
Fernando itu ga suka kalo gue ga balas smsnya

Fernando itu selalu bikin gue ketawa
Fernando itu selalu bikin gue geli sama dia
Fernando itu selalu bikin gue khawatir dan itu bener

Fernando ga pernah bilang selamat tinggal
Fernando ga pernah ngecewain gue
Fernando ga pernah maksa gue kalo dia pengen sesuatu ga gue kabulin

Fernando kadang-kadang nyebelin
Fernando kadang-kadang bikin gue marah
Fernando kadang-kadang suka bgt kibulin gue
Fernando kadang-kadang sering tertawain gue
Fernando kadang-kadang suka kacangin gue

begitu banyak tentang fernando dan gue tahu fernando itu siapa. pacar gue juga mempunyai kekurangan dan kelebihan. gue ga ngelihat dari kelebihannya aja, tapi gue ngelihat dari kekurangannya. dan gue tetep cinta sama fernando! :)

I love Fernando :)

Hello

i swear, i'm happy today. because i'm relationship with Fernando. plese view my relationship status on My Facebook
you know nando? haha itu yang suka fotoan sama gue. nah mau tahu kenapa gue bisa jadian sama nando? jadi gini gue tuh lagi ga tenang habis pingsan, gue pingsan karena waktu renungan gue nangis. karena gue kata temen-temen gue, gue ngamuk jadi gue diangkat sama nando ke Perpus dan gue juga pingsan, waktu gue pingsan nando katanya nangis. terus waktu gue sadar tangan gue dipegang erat sama nando. gue ga tahu kenapa gue merasa nyaman deket sama nando dan nando yang bikin gue tenang kalo nangis. gue harap, semoga gue sama dia bisa longlast. gue sayang sama nando, karena dia gue bisa lupain safran. dia nembak gue caranya dia itu lewat fb nembak gue, tapi sebelumnya gue emang udah kayak pacaran sama dia. i love you nando :)

Me and Nando

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Liat aja mata gue, habis nangis

Asli ngakak

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gue ngakak melihat foto yang ga gue sadar, tiba-tiba dibelakang gue ada 2 makhluk ikut berfoto. anda tahu apa? penampakan? bukan. mau tahu? ok mereka berdua itu nando sama safran haha. so, gue kasih tahu fotonya

asli ngakak gue haha, yang paling lucu nando menurut gue haha. bener-bener gue ga sadar kalo
mereka juga ikut berfoto haha