You are the best thing that has ever be mine

Dear Guy I love,

My life was a mess before. I thought that I ain’t good enough for everyone when I had my heart broken for so many times. I thought that i’m better off alone. But then you came into my life and taught me how to grow, and love myself. You are the best thing that has ever been mine.And I won’t let anyone else take you away from me.

If that’s meant to happen, I’ll do my best not to let fate destroy what we have started, for all the memories that we have shared are moments worth remembering. Thank you for giving a space in your heart and for understanding the real me. I know i’m not perfect, I’m not that sexy, I’m not that pretty, but you saw me behind those physical appearances and looked beyond what is hidden.

You made me feel like a princess, and because of that, I want to make you feel like a prince and also in return, let me tell you that I won’t ever trade you for anything.

I love you. And i’m hoping that I can share my life with you longer.

You should know that I'll always love you

Hello

I'm back. usually i wanna post something. i don't know what to do right now. miss me rite? absolutely.

I wanna go back to the time, when i'm still with you. when you makes me happy. when you said " you always in my heart. and i always love you" but i know it words can't you keep it. you lie.. you said with me " i feel very jealous. when i see you with him" i know, i've made you hurt. made you dissapointed of me. i'm just kidding. not making you hurt. and you said with my friends " we're break up because, i wanna go back with my ex again" hey, why can't you tell the truth with me? you know what, it really hurts.

You love me, i do too. i've given you everything. i've given what you want and what you need. you just don't realize it. how much you mean to me.

Apakah kau pernah berpikir tentang perasaanku ini?
Apakah kau pernah berpikir bahwa aku sakit karenamu?
Apakah kau tahu apa alasan mengapa aku tak bisa membencimu?
Apakah kau tahu yang sebenarnya, bahwa aku ingin menjauhimu?

Kau tak pernah berpikir tentang perasaanku
Kau hanya bisa menyakitiku
Kau hanya bisa melukaiku
Kau hanya bisa membuatku menangis
Kau hanya bisa mengecewakanku
Ku tahu, kau tak bisa membuatku bahagia

Ku hanya ingin kau tahu
Bahwa aku tak bisa membencimu
Aku tak bisa melupakanmu
Seperti kau yang telah melupakanku
Kau pergi dan melupakanku
Ku tak bisa sendiri dan tidak bisa melupakanmu

Kini ku tahu, mengapa aku tak bisa membencimu
Karena, aku terlanjur mencintaimu
Ku harus terima ini
Ku harus jalani hidup ini tanpa dirimu lagi
Mungkin, kau bukan yang terbaik untukku

I love you so much, i don't know how you feel with me? will love me again like before? will you come back with me? i really don't know.

I tried to stay away from you, i tried to forget you. i still can't. because, i really love you. don't ever forget. i'll always love you even you love someone else :')

Sungguh aku tak bisa, sampai kapanpun tak bisa
membenci dirimu, sesungguhnya aku tak mampu
Sulit untukku bisa, sangat sulit ku tak bisa
Memisahkan segala, cinta dan benci yang kurasa
Geisha - Cinta & Benci

He's still my yours

Helloo

I have good news for you all. because, i'm in relationship again with my ex. do you know he? yes, he's fernando. he said he still love me. and he said i'm the best for him. that's good, i glad to hear it all. even, he said the truth make me dissapointed. but, i'm happy because he can tell the truth with me. yesterday, at 24th January yes you can call this monday haha. but everybody says hate monday. because, monday is time to come back to our activities. but yesterday, my lucky day and happy day

So, i hope always together forever w/ him. he promise won't ever make me hurt anymore. and i hope he will keep it up and never lie again haha amin dah.

jadi, gue ga kira aja bakal balikkan sama si doi. gue kira si doi ga bakal balik lagi sama gue. si doi sadar, bahwa dia salah. dan ga bakal nyia-nyiain gue. tapi gue jujur agak ga sedikit yakin dengan si doi. karena, gue takut hal yang kemarin lagi terulang kembali. ya semoga aja dia ga akan ngulangin kesalahannya lagi. si doi ngeberi alasan kembalian sama gue karena diantara ceweknya yang kemaren-kemaren ga ada yang bener. katanya, gue yang bener. tambah panjang kan leher gue. terus gue seneng dengan perubahannya sekarang, dia bilang gue ga boleh lepas jilbab, terus ga boleh lagi marah-marah ga jelas. kalo ada yang salah dengan si doi gue harus terbuka, ngebilang semuanya. terus, ada yang gue suka lagi nih dengan perubahan si doi dia bilang. ada waktunya belajar, ada waktunya pacaran. kalo belajar jangan mikirin pacaran, kalo pacaran jangan terlalu. soalnya apa? karena gue sama si doi bakal UN. hoho UN udah bakal ada di depan MATA. but okay, we're believe each other will be seriously or focus to UN. and he cheer me up when i had a bad result and always said "don't ever give up. you can do it again. i believe you can do it" haha love ya so much.

Dan, gue sama si doi nyatuin nama kita berdua jadi Raifer ( Raisa & Fernando) that's good idea bb :)

And his picture, make i miss ya

When i see your face, there's not a thing that i would change. cause boy, you're amazing just the way you are~ :)