Insomnia again and again

Hello

I'm insomnia now, again and again. because after i'm studying mathematics and b.indonesia i can't sleep. and now i'll post haha. daripada gue mati kutu belajar matik mending mosting sambil dengerin lagu. tweeting juga boleh haha. hari senin gue mulai ulangan MID atau UTS. Jadwalnya itu PKN sama Bahasa Inggris, kalo PKN menurut gue sih agak mudah, tapi kalo bahasa inggris ditanya susah banget. gue emang suka sama bahasa inggris doyan banget malah, tapi menurut gue susah lah. soalnya gue juga ga konsen karena ributnya keadaan kelas yang ga bisa bikin gue berpikir. tapi yaudahlah, yang penting gue udah belajar dan usaha. doain aja semoga ulangan PKN sama bahasa inggris nilainya bagus amin

Dan hari ini jadwalnya matik sama bahasa indonesia, what the hell. matematika bat bikin gue pusing tujuh keliling, udah rumusnya alamak. gue kurang ngerti sama yang stastik-stastik tentang apa gitu. kalo bahasa indonesia juga tadi gue belajar ga masuk ke otak ga tahu kenapa juga, padahal niatnya gue mau belajar tapi ga masuk ke otak. kalo menurut gue yang bahasa indonesia yang susah itu dialog interaktif kurang ngerti juga haha. doain aja semoga gue bisa ngerjain soal-soal kayak neraka seperti bahasa indonesia atau matematika

Pokoknya, yang penting gue udah usaha buat belajar tengah malam dan udah berdoa dapat nilai bagus. tinggal nunggu hasil rapot sisipan dan mudah-mudahan ortu ga kecewa ngelihat hasilnya. Oh ya, desember udah mulai Try Out sepertinya yaaah ga ada waktu santai-santai ini itu lagi lagi dan lagi. lagian juga gue udah kelas 3 smp pasti belajar ya kudu mesti rajin kalo ga gimana gue bisa lulus? gue emang awalnya malas belajar, tapi gara-gara diceramahin sama si Ibu jadi mau belajar deh. lagian juga mau menuhin syarat biar dapat gadget yang gue mau. doain aja semoga hasil rapot sisipan MID gue bagus, amin. wish me luck for my exam tomorrow!

Udah gue ma tidur, nanti takutnya ketiduran di kelas bisa berabe gue. love ya

Quote of The Day

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I want my life without a problem, it's impossible thing

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long time no post, i'm sorry. because i don't have a time for post here. i'm very busy, many homework and i'm busy to my school. so many homework that i get. before i want to sleep, i want to post here about problem in my life

I have so many problem in my life. and i don't know how to solve it. i'm confused, very confused. i get many solution, from my friends and my boyF. Honestly, sometimes i'm strong when i have a problem in my life, and sometimes i'm weak when i can't pretend to feel strong. you see? it's hard when you want to solve your problem. Sick of crying, tired of trying. Yeah, I'm smiling, but inside I'm dying

Gue ga ngira aja, ternyata masalah gue banyak. gue udah berusaha buat meyakinkan diri gue sendiri, gue kayak gini hanya sementara. gue ga kayak gini-gini terus, gue ga sedih-sedih terus. Hidup emang kayak roda yang berputar, kadang kita diatas dan kadang juga kita dibawah. dan gue sekarang ada dibawah. gue yakin gue bakal kembali lagi diatas, semua indah pada waktunya

Gue harus optimis, gue bisa melewatinya, gue bisa menghadapinya, dan bisa menyelesaikannya. gue udah mengira, Tuhan pasti udah ngerencanain sesuatu yang Indah. motivasi atau dorongan dari Novi, Nando, Wulan, Rosdia, Vhyta dan Safran udah bikin gue semangat lagi dan bikin gue optimis dalam melewati atau menghadapi masalah gue sendiri.

It's ok, gue emang cengeng suka nangis. tapi bukan gue berarti lemah, gue cuma pengen ngeluarin emosi gue, gue keluarin itu semua karena itu yang telah membuat gue sedikit lega . tapi kadang gue ga bisa nangis enggak tahu kenapa. karena emang, sebenarnya gue mampu buat senyum dibalik kesedihan gue sendiri. Gue yakin, gue kuat! gue bisa melewati semua ini.

God, i'll pray for you. give me a miracle, give me a power. I'm strong, i can solve my problem and i won't ever give up. i promise God

Thanks for my friends who can give me a solution! i love you all! i promise, i'll try to smile and never thinking about something who un-important!

a Love Letter for You

Hello, Dear My Love.

I love you. You must know that. I love you so that I cannot imagine my life without you. I cannot sleep, I lie awake all night turning and turning about and saying your name. I have never felt like this before and understand now how a man could cut off his hand or slit his throat in the torment of such feeling. I love you. I say it over and over in my mind and see you standing there under the tree and the streetlight and suddenly it seems as if I can hardly breathe. Everything of the world that is beautiful to me is bound up in you. You are those trees, that light, the loveliness of everything I am cut off from if you say no. I tell myself that in those moments on Friday night when my ears were ringing and my mouth dry I heard you say “Not yet, Nando”. It may not be true. But I hope with all my heart it is and know that I can wait, however long, for you