When i was little..

Helloooo

Well, gue sekarang sudah menginjak umur 15 tahun. yang bentar lagi di tahun depat tepatnya tanggal 6 januari gue bakal menginjak umur 16 tahun. sudah ga kerasa, gue sudah tumbuh besar & menginjak umur yang bentar lagi bakal dewasa. sweet seventeen yg gue nantikan, tapi masih lama deng. sayangnya tubuh ini tidak tumbuh dengan semestinya. umur gue bentar lagi nambah. dan berharap semoga tinggi gue juga tambah keatas lah. tapi ga tau deng nambah apa kagak. gue akuin, gue emang anak kurang gizi.

Gue kecil & kurus macam orang yg ga tumbuh besar. terus ya kalo dilihat-dilihat gue paling kecil diantara temen-temen gue. sudah suara gue paling cempreng, cerewet & nyebelin (mungkin). Gue masih inget waktu gue masih kecil yg ga tau apa-apa. waktu gue masih kecil gue cuma tau main, main & main. ga seperti skrg ini, gue sudah tumbuh besar. sudah hampir tau segalanya. ga ada yg bisa mencegah. semakin kita bertumbuh besar, semakin kita bertekad untuk mengetahui apa yg ada didunia ini.

Setelah gue besar, gue makin tau. gue tahu apa yg dulu waktu kecil gue tanyakan sama orang tua. dan orang tua gue bilang ke gue. gue bakal tau kalo gue sudah dewasa nanti. gue ga tau apa itu cinta, patah hati, hidup itu yg sebenarnya seperti apa. gue ga menyesali apa yg sudah terjadi didalam hidup gue. gue mencoba, bijak dan kuat ngehadapinya eaeaea. oh iya, kalo ditanya gue mau balik ke masa kecil gue. sih pengen bgt ya. seandainya saja doraemon dan mesin waktu ada. gue pengen minta ke doraemon pintu kemana saja. seperti mustahil bgt itu semua bakal ada. oke gue jadi ngeluh gini.

When i was little, i didn't know what is love
When i was little, i didn't ever feel broken heart
When i was little, i didn't face the problem in my life
When i was little, i just knew to play, play and play
When i was little, i didn't feel how difficult life is
When i was little, i didn't ever being insecure
When i was little, my parents always give me more protection and atttention
When i was little, i always got what i want
When i was little, i didn't ever get the big problem
When i was little, i didn't ever feel despression.
When i was little, i just knew the life is easy. and now i know that the life is hard and i should face it & through it. keep smile for everyone and stay strong to face the reality. i wish i could be stronger.

Seandainya saja dari kecil gue bakal bisa mencegah untuk tidak tumbuh besar. eh tapi itu sangat mustahil. ga ada yg bisa cegah. terus kalo saja gue gede gini dari kecil sudah tau apa yg gue hadapi. gue bakal ga mau tumbuh besar.  okay, that's all enough for me. see you and wait for the next post :D

Big Hug & Kisses

Raisa

Mother

Mom...
Three simple words that never sounded so sweet . Something most children are never able to experience, but it is, without a doubt, God’s finest example of TRUE love; a mother’s love for her children. Mothers sometimes may be annoying or may nag at you for the smallest things. She may yell ar you, or not even speak to you; she will make you cry with her words, or cry with you because of your words.. no matter the situation you and she may be in, a relationship with your mom is something that most people, 

i believe, take for granted. Being able to hear just three simple words come from her mouth can make everything feel better. I know my mom loves me, it is shown physically through her actions, but hearing her verbally express it through her words is very rare. Mom i know you may never see this, but i do love you mom. I know sometimes you may give me a hard time, and i may reciprocate the feeling, but i know it is your way of showing me that you care. I do appreciate the little things you, and i am blessed to have you as my mom. I would not want to have any other woman as mother other than you.

I love you mom.

With Love, Raisa

Bad dream i ever had

Hello

I had bad dream last night. i dreamed my mother has gone. i've been fighting with my mother. we disscused about something and i can't accept it my mother couldn't understand me and appreciate my opinion. when i woke up from my sleep. i cried, i couldn't imagine if my mother really leave me, daddy, my sis and bro. i asked with my friends "what does it mean if i'm dreaming my mother gone?" and then she answers "it means your mother will get longlife" ratna said. "really?" i said. "yes" she said. i was happy when i heard that. is that true? but believe or not, idk that's true or not. but i'm not too much believe what she said.

i'm thinking about my mother when i'm at school. if she really leave me. how does it feel? could i accept that? could i live without her? i'm really sorry for what i've said for her. i know, i made her hurt. i do regret it now. i should understant her first. i should do what she wants and i should hear what she says. God, pls protect her wherever she is. pls tell her how much i love her and i'm regret for what i did.

She's everything to me. God sents her for me. she's angel from heaven. i'm still remembering when i was little kid. i cried in the park and she says to me "don't cry baby, i'm here. do you want the candy? if you want pls stop to crying" and then i stop to crying and she gives the my favorite snack to me. yeah it's candy! i love candy so much. i always cry if i remember that memory. mother, pls forgive me. i promise i will always listen what you say. i promise. i won't ever break my promise anymore. you should know that mom, I love you :')

Big Hug & Kisses

Raisa

Iedul Adha 1432

I just wanna say today

HAPPY IEDUL ADHA 1432!

FOR ALL MOSLEMS AROUND THE WORLD

I celebrate it today. RIP MBEK AND SAPI. semoga tenang ya di alam sana wkwk. gue idul adha tahun yg lalu ngeliat sapi dan kambing di sembelih. tahun ini nggak, dikarenakan gue trauma. kasian bgt si mbek sama si sapi disembelih. biarkanlah mereka tetap hidup dan memakan rerumputan hijau. tapi sayangnya para manusia tak ingin selalu memakan sayuran, oleh karena itu kalian harus disembelih. maafkan kami sapi dan mbek. i'll miss you mbek and pi. jan lupa baik2 ya disana ._.

Di hari Idul Adha, pagi-pagi kepala gue pusingnya ga tertahankan. mungkin gara-gara capek kemarin. gatau juga deh yg pasti gue skrg udah mendingan. gue hari ini terlalu banyak makan deh. ga inget berapa piring gue makan. sampai gue kekenyangan, emang tolol haha. Oke, that's all enough. i wish i would meet Iedul Adha next year :)

Big Hug & Kisses

Raisa